I'm feeling better now. For those who were concerned, thank you.

I went out with two mommies from this group just now. Even though I brought my 3 kids along, I feel relaxed. Alhamdulillah, they behaved today. We went out to get things for my "new hobby" (which I do not want to reveal now). InsyaAllah, I will start doing "it" next week. Hopefully when "this thing" is ready, it gonna make me feel proud. And I hope darling hubby will give me full support in doing "this" and I want him to be proud of me. I do not want to be just a "stay at home mum". I want to be someone who knows how to make full use of time and doing something valuable. InsyaAllah, with Allah's guidance and permission. 

I'm also looking foward tomorrow to meet up hubby's buddies with their wives. She is one of them. We planned to have dinner and after that hang around at my place. It's been a long time since we went out together. I'm sure it's gonna be fun.