Have Faith In HIM

I used to chat online a lot. Almost everyday. But I've stopped chatting for a long time already. Only on a few occasions when I needed to discuss something important, then I would be online with that person only. I feel it's better to stay this way.

While I was checking through my Facebook, a friend whom I love dearly, invited me to chat. I was ecstatic as it's been quite sometime since I talked to her. She is facing trials from Allah right now and she accepts her fate very well. I wish I have half of her strength to go through trials in life. She is one strong woman. I learn a lot from her.

The sweetest thing is that, even though she herself is going through some rough time now, she offers her hand to help someone who is in need. I am touch by her sincerity. I am impress with her positiveness in life.

After we updated each other on what's happening in our lives, I realized something. There's a reason behind anything that happen. Allah arranges our lives so perfectly. HE is the All-Knowing. HE closes one door but opens a few other opportunities for us. HE knows what's best for us. We need to open our eyes and open our heart to see and feel the blessings. We just need to believe and have deep faith in HIM.

Oh No!

I really need to get organized.

My routine is such a mess now.

I've slacken a lot.

This is just not me.

Time to WAKE UP.

Class

It's such a sweet pleasure to resume my classes back. For almost 2 months I've stopped attending due to my Hajj, now I got to get my engine starts.

It's so nice to see all the familiar faces in my Kuliah, even though I do not know most of their names. But the best part, we still acknowledged one another and we salam. Some even hugged and kissed my cheek. That's what silaturahim is about.

Now I wonder when will my Halaqah class starts....

The Blessings We Have

I always believe that when Allah took away a pleasure from me, He will replace with more pleasures later. There's always a blessing in disguise.

In this economy downturn, my family is somehow affected. Hubby's company now practices a 4-days work week to all the staff. I was worried actually, but all I said was "Alhamdulillah". At that time, I did not see the blessing behind that.

Now I see a clearer picture. Allah closed a door yet opened up more doors for us. With a 4-days work, Hubby now can spend more quality time with us. It's like we are having a long weekend as Hubby only works from Mondays to Fridays. He can perform his Friday prayers in peace without rushing off to work after that. He can go to JB to fill up petrol. He can help me around in the house.

We have the intention to train our almost-six-year-old son to perform his Friday prayers. Affandy school ends at 12.30 pm and his school is so near to Masjid An-Nur. Hubby can just pick him up and go direct to the mosque with his son. But we know that this intention is going to take sometime to happen. Affandy still having this "separation anxiety" and the person he wants to see right after school is ME. We are trying out best to coax him slowly and hopefully he will be ready to follow his Abah to Friday prayers soon.

Another blessing is that every Saturday is like a holiday for our family. Saturday is totally a family quality bonding time. We bring our children out and we just have our fun. What makes it more fun is that, my kitchen is always closed on weekends :D. Hubby and I did not see our children for the whole month of December, now we realize that how much our children have grown. These are the moments we need to treasure.

Right after we fetch our girls from their madrasah every Sunday morning, we are in time to attend our Kuliah Dhuha with Ustaz Shafi at Masjid An-Nur. We have our lunch after the Kuliah and again we will think of a plan for our next destination.

Allah arranges everything so nicely for us. Alhamdulillah.

Then came another blessing. We had heard about it before we went to Hajj but we did not put high hope on it. We leave it to Allah. But Allah wants it to happen and we have only Allah to thank. Hubby has been promoted to senior position and will receive a pay rise. All these blessings come from Allah. We receive with open heart and arms. Alhamdulillah.

At The Playground

Just having fun at the playground....

Masjidil Haram & Millions Of Jemaah

The journey from Hotel Zam Zam Suites to Masjidil Haram is only about 3 minutes. But with millions of Muslims in Mecca during the Hajj, it took so much longer than that. I felt like an ant walking among them, trying to reach my destination.


Jemaah walking out of Masjidil Haram after Zuhur prayer




Subhanallah........

2009 With A New Routine

Every year, I will have a new routine. Same goes for 2009.

I find that my routine for this year is a little bit hectic, especially in the morning. Maybe I have not get used to the new routine. I still need time to adjust.

My weekdays morning is somehow very rushing. Afrina and Affandy are in morning sessions while Afiqah is in the afternoon session. How I miss my "alone time" in the morning after the children were at school last year. I don't get that privilege this year.

For the past days, Hubby has been helping sending Afrina and Affandy to school. I start doing some house chores before going to the market and cook. As Afiqah is in the afternoon session, so her Quran class will be in the morning, twice a week. Right after her Quran class, she has to get ready to school. As for me, I have my Hadith class on Tuesdays and Quran class on Wednesdays. So my weekdays morning is practically in and out of the house.

After sending Afiqah to school, I have to fetch Afrina and Affandy. Get them to pray and eat lunch, then I have to sit with them for their homework and revision. Then I continue to clear the never-ending house chores. Have to fetch Afiqah in the evening. After Maghrib, we'll have dinner and I'll sit with Afiqah to do her homework.

By 9 pm, I'll get the children to perform their Isyak prayer, then off to bed. When they are in bed, then I can relax. By that time, I really feel exhausted and sleepy.

This year, as two of my children are in primary school, I pledge to do more volunteering work at their school. I want to get to know the school better and get involve in their activities. As this is my second year helping, I have made some friends there and I'm comfortable with them.

All my religious classes will resume starting from this Sunday. On some of my weekday nights, I'll attend the classes with Hubby. I don't wish to miss the classes even how exhausted I am. I yearn to be in majlis ilmu.

I pray that Allah gives me absolute strength, so that I can perform my duty to Him and to my family, well.

My heart is THERE....

Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. Allahu Akbar.

Every single praises is ONLY for ALLAH.

Allah the Most Compassionate. Allah the Most Merciful.

Alhamdulillah, I am back from my Hajj pilgrimage since last Thursday.

There is no exact words I could find to describe the feeling when I was there at the two Holy Lands, only praises to Allah.

Prayed inside Masjidil Haram, facing the Ka'abah, with more than 3 million Muslims from all over the world, was simply ........



Prayed inside Masjidil Nabawi, with my beloved Rasulullah s.a.w, so near, was entirely .......



I could not find a better word.

I could only cry.

Despite the trials, tests and sickness I got over there, yes, I still wanna go again.

Mecca, Mina, Arafah, Muzdalifah, and of course, Madinah, were the places of my million teardrops.

My spiritual journey to only HIM.

InsyaAllah, I will be back with more.