The scent of the 'minyak urut' still lingers on my body and even in my room. I feel relaxed now and no more back pain. I was a little ticklish and my body was tensed when she started to rub my body. I was told to relax. One and a half hour gone so fast. How I wish I could get massage everyday....

It's not easy to become the 'middle' person. I have tried my very best to be the neutral party but it's not an easy task. When I listened to the first story, I felt angry, but after listening to the second one, I felt pity. But I know I have to put those feelings aside as I have to remind myself that I am not in the position to take sides. I love both parties the same and I am honoured that they have put their trust in me through confiding. These responsibilities are heavy, at least for me. When I talked to the first party, I felt the urge to tell the whole story from the second party, and vice-versa. But something stopped me somehow. I was glad that I didn't do that cause when I stepped back and looked at the whole scenario, it will only make matter worse. I did not want to be 'talam dua muka'. It's difficult to convey the message to both parties as I had to rephrase their words in a nice and acceptable manner. And if I phrase it wrongly, I can foresee that I will be at the losing end if there are to make peace with each other. I have done my part and now it's up to them to forgive, forget and start afresh. May Allah lead them to the right way.

Rest assured that I am not flattered that people came to me for advise or opinion. I am not a counselor of any kind or someone that people can look up to. I am just a humble human being who has her own flaws. I am not perfect. But if people come to me for advise, I am glad to give my opinion from my point of view. I treasure their trust in me.

Ya Allah, please give me the strength to hold these responsibilities....