I want to write about my weekend, but today I just feel PISSED OFF. I don't understand why people can be downright rude and unethical. If I have done anything offensive, tell me straight to my face! I can accept it and sincerely apologize if I am wrong.

The situation at home does not enlighten my mood. With Affandy and Afiqah still sick, I have no idea what else I should do to make them better. The thing is they seldom get sick. But once the virus start attacking them, it's going to take while for them to recover. But, not this long. They have been sick for more than two weeks now. They have completed the whole course of medication. I even brought Affandy twice to see the doctor. But their conditions still remain the same, though slightly improved. What I worry most, is their fever. One moment they are fine - they will sweat and behave like any active children, but another moment they will just sit one corner and become very quiet. Then they will start crying and asked to be carried. The worst is Affandy, as nothing can make him comfortable beside cling to me. Another worry is that, he lost his appetite. Not single rice he will swallow, not even a biscuit. He only wanted nature's milk. I have to feed him but I am skeptical that the milk is nutritious enough for him. At his age, he ought to take more solid food. But at this moment, he just wanted my milk. I don't mind giving him, but how to make him understand that I have other things to do also. It also deprives me from my sleeping at night. It makes me stress up but I can't bear to see him crying out for me.

As a Mom, besides doing my very best to look after them, I just pray that my children will get better and healthier. Maybe this is a test for me. Ya Allah, please give me strength to carry on....

BENDA NI LAH!!!

Benda ni lah yang Hubby belikan masa kita shopping kat Courts Toa Payoh Central tu. Ada sale pulak tu. Benda-benda macam ni, hanya surirumah seperti aku aje yang tahu menghargai. Tanpa benda-benda ni, terasa hidup macam tak sempurna gitu. Lagi-lagi seterika (betul tak ejaan dia??) tu...dah lama aku mengecek Hubby suruh belikan yang baru. Barulah dapat. Yang lama bukan dah rosak, cuma bawah dia dah bercalar-calar habis aku kerjakan. Aku bukan ganas, itu maknanya aku bekerja!! Hampir setiap hari aku gosok baju, kalau tak aku, siapa lagi!!!

Yang benda lagi satu pulak, err...tangan ni macam dah gatal nak buat bermacam-macam kuih. Tak kira kuih apalah, asalkan senang dibuat. Sebenarnya aku ada yang besar punya, tapi aku simpan kat store untuk collect habuk. Sebab dia besar sangat, lainlah kalau aku nak buat kuih untuk 200 orang punya makan. Dah lah berat benda tu, tak kuasa aku nak angkat. Tapikan, itu pemberian ibu mertuaku tau, so ada sentimental value. Setiap kali nak menjelang raya, dia pasti jeling-jeling kat dapur aku, nak tengok aku ada pakai ke tak. Dah 5 tahun benda tu tak keluar-keluar!! Sebab tu aku simpan baik-baik kat store tu. Tunggulah nanti bila aku ada rancangan nak berniaga kuih, baru aku keluarkan (wait long long). Sementara ni, aku gunakanlah mixer yang kecik molek macam aku ni. Nak buat kuih apa eh....??

HAH!!! BACALAH.........!!!!

Semalam aku hantar Afiqah berjumpa doktor kerana dia demam. Oleh kerana dia tak ke sekolah, aku mintak doktor tu MC. Hari ini dia agak sihat, cuma tinggal batuk aje. Dia ni macam aku, nak makan ubat yang sedap aje. Ubat batuk ni ada sikit pahit, jadi dia tak nak makan. Terpaksalah campurkan dengan susu, baru dia minum. Walaupun dia sakit, mulut dia tak sakit. Asyik pet pot pet pot aje. Ada aje yang dia nak cakap. Yang part ni aku tak tau dia ikut siapa, sebab aku tak macam gitu. Aku pet pot pet pot ikut mood. Nak kira kan aku ni pendiam jugaklah. Betullllll...

Masa Hari Raya Haji kemarin, aku ke rumah emak. Masa tu aku masih sakit, jadi aku rilek aje kat sana. Rumah emak pulak ramai orang datang, jadi ramai yang tolong jagakan anak-anak aku. Dapat jugak aku rest. Emak aku suka masak-masak. Sampai pakcik aku cakap, dia masak untuk 200 orang punya makan. Dia pun suka kasi adik beradik dan anak sedara dia tapau lauk-pauk tu. Sesiapa yang datang rumah emak, pasti balik dengan plastic bag. Orang semua favourite lauk sambal goreng dan ayam masak merah dia. Bila agaknya aku boleh terror masak macam emak?

Lepas Maghrib, Hubby ajak pergi shopping kat Toa Payoh Central. Apalagi...dapatlah aku beli barang-barang yang aku idam-idamkan. Nak tau apa? Tak boleh cakap sekarang. Nanti bila aku free, aku publish gambar barang-barang tu. Part tu korang nak komen, silakan......

Hari Sabtu, aku bawak anak-anak pergi rumah kawan aku. Hubby kena kerja satu hari, tapi kawan aku lagi satu pelawa aku tumpang kereta dia. Sebenarnya aku segan, tapi dia nak jugak suruh aku tumpang, boleh jugak aku jimat duit teksi.

Sampai aje rumah kawan aku tu, anak-anak aku terus masuk bilik anak dia. Aku panggil suruh makan pun dorang tak layan. Mana tak, bilik budak tu macam kedai mainan. Semua mainan ada. Bila part kemas, aku kena salute dengan kawan aku. Sebab kalau suruh aku kemas bilik mainan tu, aku TAK SANGGUP!!!

Walaupun Hubby tak de, aku dah biasa dengan tetamu-tetamu yang hadir. Ada ke patut dorang cakap aku ibu tunggal!!! Ada pulak yang menghasut bahawa Hubby sebenarnya tak kerja. Aku dah biasa dengan kerenah bapak-bapak ni semua. Perangai gila-gila dorang tak hilang dari muda. Bila dah jumpa, pasti gamat!!

Hubby sampai rumah kawan aku dalam pukul 9 malam. Ramai tetamu yang dah pulang. Aku tetamu terakhir yang balik. Yang bestnye, banyak makanan aku dapat tapau balik. Mana yang aku favourite, aku ambil lebih-lebih. Dengan kawan aku ni, aku tak nak segan-segan, buang karen aje.

Hari Ahad, aku pergi rumah emak lagi. Dah menjadi kebiasaan, pada Hari Raya Haji, aku dan Hubby jadi sukarelawan kat Masjid Muhajirin. Aku tinggalkan anak-anak kat rumah emak, aku pergi berdua dengan Hubby. Tak dapat bayangkan betapa seronoknya dapat keluar berdua tanpa anak-anak, walaupun untuk seketika.

Di masjid, kambing tak kunjung tiba. Dari sebelum Asar sampai lepas Isyak, masih tak nampak bayang kambing. Oleh kerana hari dah malam dan besok budak-budak nak sekolah, Hubby ajak balik. Emak cakap anak-anak aku tak nangis pun. Tapi yang bestnye kan, emak cakap sekali-sekali tinggalkan anak-anak aku kat rumah dia, biar dia jagakan. Yahoo!!! Ada chance lah aku dating berdua dengan Hubby. Dalam kepala otak ni dah plan macam-macam...nak tengok wayang, nak shopping, nak makan kat high-class restaurant, nak pergi laut, nak pergi hotel....wow! Aku rindu dengan alam romantika yang pernah aku nikmati dulu. Sekarang pun masih romantik jugak, tapi sekejap aje. Time limited!!!!

As I am typing this, my head is drowsy due to the flu medicine that I took just now. I am also shivering even though the weather is hot outside. Yes, I am sick, and so are Afrina, Afiqah and Affandy. All of us has been down with flu and cough.

But Afrina is the worst among us as she had fever since Sunday night. She was absent from school on Monday as her temperature was quite high. By afternoon, she has started sweating and she looked fine, so she went to school on Tuesday. But last night, her temperature rose again, and her coughing made her vomited. I send her to see doctor this morning, and she got 2 days of MC. She had 5 types of medicine to take. I just let her rest and hopefully she can recover soon.

Afiqah just started to cough and a slight running nose. It looks like she is fit to go to school. I gave her the medicine before she goes to school just now. Hopefully she did not fall asleep as the medicine will make her drowsy.

As usual, my Affandy will get cranky and agitated easily when he is sick. It was so difficult to get him to take the medicine as he would struggle and cried his heart out. I got no choice but to force him to swallow the medicine. How I wish Hubby was here to help me out....

I really hope that we could recover fast as I really need to be back on my feet again. I just feel that I can't afford to fall sick. There are so many things to do and I do not want to rely on Hubby so much. He has been very helpful and I am really grateful for that.

Thank you for those who has tagged and wrote some comments for me. I really need to rest and to be myself again. I will visit each of you once I am fine.

By the way, the cookies that I made last week was just a try out. It's not meant for Hari Raya Haji. I thought of baking something today but I don't have the strength. And I miss my class today.....

Alhamdulillah, so far I am getting use to the new routine. Though my free time is limited, I managed to squeeze some time to bake this....


Snow Rock Cookies

Thank you Mummy Jam for your recipe. She gave me quite some time ago, only now I had the time to bake it. At least my oven get heat up once in a while. Now I'm tempted to bake something, which the recipe I got it from Zu. It may look easy, but not sure if I can do it.

In order to bake this, I need to push myself and some motivations, from Hubby maybe....

Every Friday, all the students from my daughters' school are required to put on jubah and tudung for the girls and baju kurung and songkok for the boys. I couldn't stop smiling looking at Afiqah in that attire.

Before going to school.....and yes, powder on the face is a MUST!


After school......


Berserak habis!!!

It's been almost a week since the school reopen, but I still have not get use to the new routine. It seems that my "free" time is shorten. My duty starts from 5.30 a.m., and by 9.00 p.m. I'm dead worn out.

I am not in the position to complain as I know I am working in the comfort of my own abode. Who would listen to me anyway? I'm just grateful that I have the chance to look after my own children and watch them develop from babies to who they are right now. It's not an easy task, but I have to take one step at a time. I just have to remind myself that I am not perfect nor a superwoman. Hopefully that can bring my stress level down.

I've just on my PC and Affandy is crying looking for me.....

What a busy day today!!!

8.00 a.m - The whole family sent Afrina to school. Since she is familiar with the school's surroundings and atmosphere, I have nothing to worry about. As Afiqah will be in the next session, I brought her in hopefully she will not be shock later. She insisted that she wanted to join her sister in the classroom. I had to carry her out. We had breakfast at McDonalds, went to Sheng Siong and reached home about 10.00 a.m. Need to prepare Afiqah for school.

11.30 a.m - Sent Afiqah in to her classroom. I was quite worried as some students from other classes started to cry. But Afiqah was too busy to notice that.


Get ready to go to school.


She chose the seat herself. Posed before the form teacher comes in.


This is the cutest part. While her form teacher was busy talking to other parents and waiting for the classmates to settle down, she took out her pencil and Barbie book and started to do her own work. *That's my girl!*


Starts to make friend....


Finished school. Waiting for the school bus and showing off her name tag....


At the void deck, tired after 2 hrs of school.

We reached home about 2.00 p.m. Since I did not have the time to cook, we bought our lunch from the usual place, Banquet Vista Point.

Tomorrow will be another hectic day. Hubby will start work after a long sweet holiday. And I'm back to my usual routine.

Hari ini aku nak bercerita dalam bahasa ibunda pulak.

Semalam pagi selepas sholat subuh, suami aku tak tidur balik. Jarang dia buat macam gini. Dia menonton DVD, lepas itu dia mandi dan turun Vista Point belikan kami sarapan. Lepas itu, dia tolong aku vacuum satu rumah pulak tu! Seronokkan? Kalau tiap-tiap minggu macam gini kan best. Tapi aku tak ambil kesempatan tau. Aku pun ada banyak lagi kerja nak dibereskan.

Selepas kami sholat Zuhur, kami siap untuk ke Sengkang, angkut dia
satu keluarga. Kami nak angkut dia dalam pukul 2, dia boleh "menawar masa" lagi! Dari 2.30 ke 2.45. Tapi turunnya pukul 3.10. Tapi takpe, sebab aku suka keluar dengan keluarga dia. Anak-anak aku ada kawan, suami aku ada kawan, aku pun ada kawan. Suami kami punya "gila-gila" pun setanding, jadi kami tak bosan.

Kita pergi Orchard Road tau. Kita makan di Breeks di Ngee Ann City. Lepas makan, kita jalan-jalan, tapi terpisah pulak. Keluarga dia nak pergi Metro, tapi keluarga aku, nak pergi John Little. Jadi suami aku telepon suami dia, tunggu di Masjid Al-Falah aje lepas sholat Maghrib.

Di John Little, aku fikir nak membeli belah sikit (sikit aje!), tapi terbantut pulak. Ni semua gara-gara Afrina lah!. Tengah sebuk pilih-pilih baju, dia kata dia sakit perut, nak memberut. Spoil ah! Takkan nak suruh Abah dia hantarkan? Jadi terpaksalah cari bilik kecik tu. Cari punya cari, jumpa jugak. Bila dah habis urusan dia, dah masuk waktu Maghrib, mana ada masa nak pilih barang lagi! Dengan muka yang mencuka ni, berjalanlah kita anak-beranak ke Masjid Al-Falah. Hati ini tengah panas tau, bercampur dengan tekak haus lagi. Tapi sampai Masjid, suami aku belikan air Soya Bean, lepas tu dia beri amaran pada anak-anak, "KASI UMMI MINUM DULU!" Yeah, aku dapat minum first, kalau tidak asyik Afiqah atau Afrina aje first, aku kena mengalah. Lepas sholat, aku tak "hot" lagi. Takkan depan kawan nak tunjuk muka 14 kan?

Suami kawan aku tu, suruh lepak kat rumah dia, sebab dia nak tengok perlawanan bola. Di kereta, kita semua berdebat mana nak beli makan malam. Compass Point ke atau Rivervall Mall? At last, aku yang buat keputusan, pergi Rivervall Mall sudahlah. Habis cerita. Bila sampai depan pintu rumah kawan aku tu, dia cakap, "jangan terkejut, rumah dia berserak". Bila aku masuk, dalam hati aku cakap, "ini dia kata berserak, dia belum tengok rumah aku lagi!"

Sambil makan dan melayan tetamu, tuan rumah lelaki tu sempat tengok bola. Aku sengaja kacau dia, suruh dia tukar saluran, sebab aku bosan tengok perlawanan bola. Dia cakap, lepas ni, aku nak tengok cerita apa pun boleh, lagi 10 minit bola ni habis. Tapikan, lepas bola habis, dia on x-box pulak. Habislah suami aku pun melekat kat depan tv tu. Nasib baik isteri dia layan aku berbual. Macam-macam kami perbualkan, sampai haus tekak.

Jam dah nak pukul 12 tengahmalam, suami aku tak sound pun nak balik. Ini tak boleh jadi! Budak-budak pulak sebok serakkan bilik bujang kecik yang penuh dengan alat permainan. Apalagi, tak ingat nak balik lah.

Kami sampai rumah pukul 12.30 malam. Si Afiqah dah dibuai mimpi bila masuk kereta, jadi Abah dia kena pikul. Kami terpaksa kejutkan Afrina dari tidur dia, sebab dia kena jalan sendiri. Siapa nak dukung dia, anak dara dah besar panjang! Lepas sholat Isyak, aku pun terus dibuai mimpi. Bila tadi jam bunyi pukul 5.30, dah kena bangun. Sampailah sekarang.

Aku ingatkan suami nak buat macam semalam, lepas subuh tak tidur balik. Macam takde harapan gitu. Entah nanti boleh bangun pergi belajar di Masjid An-Nur ke tidak? Kita tengok lah nanti.......

HAPPY NEW 2005!!!

Goodbye 2004..... Happy New Year to everyone!

Yesterday, even though it was raining the whole day, we brought the kids out. We had our lunch at Banquet Vista Point. Suprisingly, I met Salha while I was enjoying my food. She came down to have lunch with her whole family too. I was glad that I met up with her again and we exchanged phone numbers. But we did not manage to say goodbye as she left when I sent Afiqah to the washroom.

After lunch, we parked our car, took the feeder bus and MRT to Lot 1 Choa Chu Kang. My kids were happy and contented to have the chance to take the MRT rides. Normally Hubby would drive us to our destinations or I would flag a taxi if Hubby was not around. Watching them couldn't sit still in the trains, made me think twice to ride with them alone, without Hubby. I wouldn't want to raise my voice unnecessarily to them in the public. Wait till they are a bit older and listen to every instructions from me, then I will be confident enough.

We just walked around at Lot 1 Shopping Centre and I bought a birthday gift for a friend's child. We took the train and bus back home.

Since it was still raining and we were lazy to buy dinner, I cooked instant noodles instead. As we seldom eat them, it tasted delicious till my girls had their third servings. They were really famished after the outing. I put the kids to bed before 10.00 p.m. I thought of joining Hubby watched TV after they were asleep, but when I woke up, it was already 5.30 a.m this morning.

No plans for today yet. But I will insist to Hubby that we should go out as I can anticipate that Monday will be a very busy day for me. There's where my duty as a domestic engineer resume. A very demanding and tough job undeniably!