The Journey Begins

Every time I think about it, I'll have butterflies in my stomach. I could not really describe the exact feelings I'm having right now.

InsyaAllah, in less than a week, to be exact, next Monday, my spiritual journey begins. I'll be joining 3 million Muslims from all the over world, to the sacred and holy land. I have been invited by Allah, and I will fulfil the invitation with my whole heart.

While I am typing this, I have not even pack a single thing. I have the list of what to bring, but the luggage bags are still empty. I have so many things to settle before my departure, especially those related to my children. Not just their school books, bags, uniforms etc., I also have to prepare them for my one-whole-month not being with them. I do not have much problems with Afrina and Afiqah, as they seem to understand what I will be going through. But Affandy thought that I will be home by 10 p.m each night. He cried when I told him that we will be apart for one month. He even talked in his sleep by crying out "Ummi!! Ummi!!".

It's really hard to leave my children. That is my most greatest challenge. But I am determine and that cannot stop me. I am leaving behind all my precious world possessions - my children, my families and relatives, my friends, my house, my car, my books, my plants (yes, I grow plants) etc., for the sake of my spiritual journey to HIM. All of that are not mine anyway, they belong to HIM. HE could anytime take away all that from me. It's now between me and HIM.

I'll be lying if I say I am not scared. I am scared.

I pray for health, patience and smooth throughout my whole journey.

I seek forgiveness from all of you, those I have met and those I have not.

This may be my last entry until I come back, InsyaAllah.

Please keep me in your du'a.