Patience...patience

Somebody out there....please teach me how to be patience!!!

Budak-budak kat rumah ni betul-betul menguji kesabaran aku. Asyik bertekak aje! Satu hari tak bergaduh, tak sah. Gaduh mulut tak pe, tapi kalau dah jalan tangan, macamana? Si kakak tak nak mengalah, si adik lagi terror - main cekau dan tarik rambut. Bila dah baik, kalahkan best friend...so loving. Tapi bila gaduh..hai...

If I follow my heart, I don't wish to find out who's at fault. Just wanna pinch and hit them hard. But I'll feel guilty after that. Make me worst than a step-mum in old movies. There was once when I could'nt take it anymore when they quarelled, I just sat in front of them and cried. I didn't want to scold them, didn't want to beat them. I'm just tired...with the never-ending house chores.

"Dear girls..Ummi loves both of you very much. But sometimes Ummi has to be a very wicked mum when I'm angry. I'm sorry that I beat both of you just now. It hurts me too. But I couldn't control my anger when both of you shouted at each other while your little brother was asleep. You girls woke him up. So I hope you learnt your lesson."

Lega dapat luahkan perasaan yang meluap-luap ini. So..kawan-kawan yang ada anak...kasi tips please...

LOOK AT THOSE TOYS!!

Dear friends..meet my son...Affandy. Surrounded by his presents..toys, toys, toys...

Before opening....


After opening....


Say hi to everyone....

WHERE ARE MY GIRLS???

My two adorable girls are still not back from their holidays yet! They were supposed to return yesterday, but they are still at my in-laws' house at JB. I really miss them so much. This house is so quiet without their bickering at each other, their laughter and their demand. Sometimes I wonder, do they miss me?

Yesterday was Affandy's 1st birthday. He can stand up on his own now, hopefully he can learn to walk soon. I can see that he miss his sisters also.

I had a lunch date with my husband yesterday. It's so awkward to eat with just the three of us. Later at night, my hubby's buddy came by to our house with his girlfriend. She is so tall, taller than my hubby in fact. But she is so sweet and very friendly. We became friends immediately and I like her a lot. We went to Mustafa Centre (yes chapati, again) and had our dinner there. And guess what, we bought a new 14" colour TV!!! The old one was out of order for so long and we were TVless in our master bedroom. Come to think of it, why a 5-room flat needs to have 3 TV's?

Later today I planned to bring Affandy to Changi Airport to send off my 2 aunts and uncle to Umrah. I really hope I can go to Umrah again. Mecca is a very beautiful and peaceful place. Insya'Allah...one day we will go one whole family.

I'M BACK!!!

Yes, I know...I should update. Been verrrry busy to really sit down and type. Well..here I am!

Where should I start? Sunday...was a very hectic and busy day. I celebrated my son's 1st birthday (even though his exact birthdate will be tomorrow, 23rd). A lot of guests came in and out...and I think I was a very lousy host. For those who came..sorry if I couldn't entertain you much. And thank you very much for coming to celebrate and for all those lovely presents and $$$$!!! Affandy got a lot of toys and the problem now..I don't know where to put them!

I was delighted when my friends from Cyberibu came. Thanks kawan-kawan, you girls ROCK!

I also would like to express my appreciation to my darling cousin, Linda, who sponsored the birthday cake. It's sooo yummmyyyy!!!! Thanks girl!

By the way, my in-laws "borrowed" my two little princesses that night. They promised to "return" them on tomorrow. I miss the girls sooo much!

Monday....was cleaning day. Washed all the "perioks", vacuuming, mopping, rearranging the furniture, washing the laundry...and the list goes on and on and on and on....PENAT TAU!

Today I feel sad. I went to visit my cousin brother in hospital this afternoon. There's a tumour grow in his stomach that had already spread. He got 4 lovely kids and he is the sole breadwinner. When I spoke to his wife, I was touched when she said, "I have to be strong cause I know he needs me more than ever." When I went home, I tried to imagine me in her shoes. Can I be as strong as her? Who would be there for me if this happen to me? Sometimes, we always take things for granted when our loved ones are around. I am very ashamed of myself. I pray that Allah will guide me to become a good and "more tolerance" wife. May Allah strengthen my faith and dismiss my pride. May Allah protect my family, relatives and friends that I loved. Amin....

So many things are on my mind today. And I can't think straight. I understand now life will never always be perfect even how hard you tried. Like I've said, I'm Not A Superwoman. Please understand.....

I try not to think about my problems right now. At the moment, I still have a lot of things to do. This Sunday is my son's birthday party. I hope everything will turn out well. I'm quite excited actually. When I think about the gifts and presents that Affandy will get...(eee tak malu ummi ni). Time flies so fast...my son is turning 1 soon.

This is the photo of my kids taken on last Hari Raya.

I'M NOT A SUPERWOMAN :-(

Early in the morning I put breakfast on your table
And make sure that your coffee had it sugar and cream
Your eggs are over-easy, you taste it lightly
What missing is your morning kiss that you used to greet me

Now you see the juicy sour, that it used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurting so deep....
I got my pride, I will not cry
But its making me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And thinks that everything's ok
Boy I am only human

I rushed my way thru the rush hour just to make it for you
I want to make sure your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there, you just say you're not hungry at all
You said you rather read the paper and you don't want to talk

You like to say that I'm just crazy when I said that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me same
You just go and thru it all, and you're not being fair
I got my pride, I will not cry
But its making me weak

Baby look into the corner of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be the superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my love, everlasting love
If you return love to me.....

I'M TIRED

I feel very tired today. So much things to do. With Affandy's birthday party just round the corner, still got a lot to do.

This morning, after sending Afrina to "kelas ngaji", I rushed back to cook as Dear Hubby is going back for lunch. Then I went again to fetch Afrina and with my 3 kids, we went to Vista Point to get the bread and milk. All of us were sweating as the weather was so hot today.

This morning also Hubby has brought down the curtains and I've washed them. I managed to wipe the windows and its soooooo dusty!!! Of coz I didn't open the grill, I don't dare. Just wiped the inside will do. The girls & I cleared their room. We threw away all the unwanted and broken toys. They have so many toys! Still have loadful of laundries to do and the list go on and on and on and on.....

Anyway, my good friend, Lin mentioned me in her blog entry today. Thanks Lin...I think you are great too!

What Did I Do Today?

Monday...I'm quite satisfied for the work done today. Finally after almost 6 years living in our own house, hubby asked the aircon man to service our air-conditioners. Years of complaining and nagging that our aircon was not that cold....now I got no more reason to complain. Thanks hubby..I appreciate what you have done..Love you muack!

And I have cleared the whole basket of clothes for ironing!!!! Well done Ummi!! My kids and I locked ourselves in my room and we switched on the air con (just serviced ok), we on the radio. The girls played dressed up with my tudungs, while my boy played by himself in his cot. The girls messed my room, but why should I mind. My heart melts watching them playing. As long as I can finished my ironing!

Hubby work afternoon shift today. Meaning we only can meet him the next morning coz by the time he comes back..all of us will be having our sweet dreams..I hope.

Ta...dah......

First of all...a million thanks to my friend, teacher, IT consultant, moderator..etc.. Without her, I would not be sitting here typing. And she was soooo patient with me all along. The layout was so beautifully done with my favourite colour..pink! Wow... I love you Zai...muack!

Hello frenz...

Welcome to my blog!! (Chapati - baru i berani go on air, he he). Hopefully I can make new frenz here and others can get to know me better.

Yesterday, I felt feverish. I missed my swimming lesson today and missed meeting my Cyber frenz. Hopefully Kak Gee is not angry with me coz I forgot to message her that I would be absent. Sorrryyy Kak Geee.... I feel better now but still weak. Gotta go!