FULL

It ends here.

Thank you for the friendship.

For those who wish to prolong our friendship, you know where to find me :)

**bows down**

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY SON.....

I am THREE years old today.

PEACE!!

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Tonight is the night......he's coming HOME!!!!

THE BABY I ROMOS-ED

Can't get enough of romosing this tiny little adorable cute baby girl....

NUR KHAIRINA SOPHIA



Definitely will be back to romos her again. Siap kau Pe'ah.....

FUN TIME

I had no idea where to bring my kids yesterday. I was so glad when my friend from Cyberibu, invited me to have lunch with her.

So yesterday, we brought our kids to lunch at Jurong Point. . BQ joined us too, even though only for less than an hour.

Coincidently, Jurong Point organized a meet-and-greet session with Ultraman Nexus. Though my kids are not a great fan of theirs, they just joined the queue to take some pictures with the Ultramans. Affandy and Afiqah were excited at first. But when the crowd was getting bigger, they changed their mind. So only Afrina and Naufal took photo with them. Due to the crowd, the kids were allowed only one shot. We queued for more than half an hour, the meeting session took less than 30 seconds. Chet!

Anyway, I'm glad that the kids had their fun. I had fun chit-chating with my friend too. Click on the photo to view more pics of the kids having fun.



I also would like to congratulate my dear friend, Aliyah on the arrival of her newborn daughter!! I shall visit her and the baby later in the evening. Yeah!! A baby to ROMOS!!! I lioke........ Heh heh.....

HOME SWEET HOME

Alhamdulillah, we reached home safely at 10.30 pm last night.

Despite the hot wheather, the overall tour was good. My and the kids had a good time there.

The best part was the shopping!! Fuhyoh....! It was heaven!

If I never think of the heavy luggages to carry home, I might continuously shop and shop till I drop!

Even though Hubby was not with us, I think I could manage on my own. With some helps from my aunt and my cousin, I think I did alright. Of course I wished Hubby was with us, but I might be going to a short tour on my own again. InsyaAllah....

The shopping bags and luggage bags are still sitting in my room. And I have loads of laundry to do. In the meantime, you may click and view the photos....

OFF WE GO!!

Off we go to Trengganu/Cherating!

We will be back on Monday, InsyaAllah......

THE THIRD DAY

Today's the third day Hubby is far away from us. I was so relieved and happy when he called from his hotel yesterday morning. So good to hear his voice again.

Our local time is eleven hours ahead, so right now he may be having his dinner. It's already Wednesday morning here, but it's still Tuesday night there.

I have still not fully recover from my cold. I pray so hard that I'll be alright before my trip to Trengganu/Cherating this Friday.

Since Afiqah and Affandy were not with us yesterday, Afrina was bored. So I brought her to lunch at Cafe Galilee at Woodlands Library. We also spent our time reading books at the library. Less than an hour, I had to leave the library as I could not breathe. My nose is so blocked that I just wanted to take my medicine and sleep. We went straight home after that.

My MIL sent Afiqah and Affandy only early this morning, instead of yesterday. Once Affandy got into the house, he hugged me tight and kissed me. He missed me, for sure.

I have no plans yet for today. Maybe we'll just stay home. Maybe I'll bake cup cakes for the kids. Maybe we'll have the DVD marathon. Maybe I'll just lie down on my bed for the whole day. Maybe I'll clear all the housework before I leave for my trip. Maybe I'll just face the PC all day. Maybe......

I want my HUBBY!!!!!!

SO WE START MISSING HIM....

Hubby left to States this morning at 4.15 a.m. Everytime we went to the States, I would surely cry. I was not like this when he travelled to Penang. Maybe because the States is about 18 hours journey while Penang is only 1 hour. As usual, once he stepped out of the house with his luggage, I felt so empty inside.

To make matter worst, I'm down with flu and cough. And I had a fever yesterday. Just imagine, being sick with 3 kids at home, and hubby is not in town. Haizz....

Affandy woke up this morning and asked about his Abah. I can sense his sadness when I told him that Abah has fly off to US. All day long, he played on his own. He arranged all his toy vehicles in a single line, and stared at them, one by one. He always do that when he plays alone. He misses his play partner, his Abah.....

Hubby made a short call home when he transited at Japan just now. I asked Affandy if he wanted to talk to his Abah, he refused to talk, but he cried instead. I knew that instance, he just wanted his Abah to be home with him.

My MIL called up offered to take care of the kids while I rest since I'm ill. Part of me wanted to take the offer so I can have a peaceful recovery. But on the other hand, I'll lose my sanity if I were to be alone. I don't want to sleep alone.

Since Afrina is big enough to decide on her own, I asked if she wants to sleep over at her Nenek's place. She chose to stay with me.....

So MIL came and picked Afiqah and Affandy just now. Hopefully when Affandy sees his uncle (my younger BIL) and his Atuk, he will not miss his Abah that much. He just need a father figure to play with him.

Oh dear, now I'm starting to miss my Hubby, Afiqah dan Affandy......badly.

THE GOOD AND SAD NEWS

I have two news to share.....

The good news is, it's confirmed that Hubby will be in US for only two weeks. Yeah!!!

And the sad news is....

After the US trip, he will only be in town for one pathetic week. Then he'll fly off again to Kulim, Penang for another two weeks. Booohooooohoooo......!

Why oh why oh why.........

Starting from Monday, for two weeks, I shall start to *sob* feel kerinduan *sob*....

And also.......*tuang air kat badan*




Hot lah!! Not "dry"!!! *tongue out* These few days the weather is hot what!!!

PRAY HARD

Hubby informed me yesterday that he MIGHT be travelling to the States for two weeks only.

He stressed that he MIGHT, so no definite confirmation yet.

I pray so hard that he'll be away for two weeks only, please please please.

Supaya ku tak kekeringan, eh salah, tak kerinduan di sini.....

Heh heh.....

BUSY WEEKENDS

Oh yes, my weekend was full of fun. Even though Hubby got to work, I still had my fun. I attended TWO gatherings!!!

Saturday, 20 May 2006 - KO Gathering



This was what I called an impromptu gathering. We only confirmed to meet up on Friday afternoon. BabyHD readily offered her place and prepared food for us.

Meeting this group of ladies, as usual, no need to behave. But of course, only if all the hubbies not around. The main reason we met up, was just to eat and eat and eat. Not to forget, to mess up BabyHD's place. Hahahahaha......! I was glad that my kids were so good in doing that!

To KOkza, kita nak piat telinga awak ek!!!


Sunday, 21 May 2006 - KMC Gathering



This meet-up was named as KMC - Kecohrable Mommies Chatters. We started by chatting at MSN and this was the first time we met. Though it was the first time, the kecohness was there.

I, as usual, maintained shy for the the first meet-up. Heh..heh...

But the host, Mama Dewi, made me feel so welcome and kept asking me to eat and eat and eat!! Sampai tak bernafas aku, Dewi! :-)

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To both groups of ladies, I had so much fun with each and all of you. Thank you for the company. All of you really made my day!

More photos can be viewed here. Enjoy!

MAKAN PER......

It all started with a tag at her blog. I jokingly asked her to deliver her Roti Kirai as it appears in her weekly menu. And she did!! Pakai mangkok tempen lagi.


She sms-ed me at 7.00 a.m in the morning and asked me to come down and collect from her. I was speechless. I was joking and she really prepared some for me. Awww....so sweet of her.


Kari Ayam sampai dua set ah......


Siap dengan Salad sekali.....

I salute you Pol. You as a working mother, still got time to prepare all those. Thank you......

Takkan nak kasi balik mangkok tempen kosong eh? Let me think of something to repay your kindness. In the meantime, let me enjoy your yummylicious Roti Kirai.

Yang lain takmo jeles hah!! Kalau nak makan free, rajin-rajin tag kat blog dia. Heh heh.......

THE MIXED FEELINGS

At this moment, my feelings are mixed.

I am happy, relieved, anxious, excited and sad.

I am so happy and relieve as Afrina has her exams results already. Alhamdulillah, she passed all the subjects. Her marks are all above my expectations. I am very proud of her. I really pray that she will remain focus and excel in her studies.

What I want to know now is, where she stands in her class. And this makes me anxious. I have to wait for her record book to find out. And that will be next week, I hope.

Like I said, I'm excited as I will bring my kids to a short trip without Hubby. Not far, I shall start with Trengganu/Cherating for a start. Hopefully everything will turn out well as planned, InsyaAllah.

It's really sad to know that Hubby will not be with us for the whole June school holidays. I feel like it's kind of waste. All these while, we have been looking foward to the school holidays, so that we can go holiday as one family. But his working schedule spoil our plans.

I may appear ok in front of Hubby, but deep in me, I do not want him to go.

Lately, he has been travelling so often. He only stays home maximum of two weeks, then he flies off again. Bear in mind, he still has to work during the weekdays and even weekends.

I know I should be grateful that he got a job, so we can live comfortably and financially secure. But, I wish he's at home more often to be with us. To spend quality time with us.

To tell the truth, when he's out of town, I feel that....I shoulder the responsibility to bring up the kids, alone. I am the mother, and I also have to act as a father too. No doubt that he called often when he's away, and I updated him on our wherebeings, but it's not the same when he's home. He's not here to see the changes and developments on our kids. And that makes me sad.....

IT'S FINALLY O-V-E-R

Afrina's exams are over!! Yeah!!!!

I've completed Project L1!! Double yeah!!!!

And and and.....Hubby's home!!!! ***banana dance***

I am a very happy woman!!

I will not start on my Project L2 until later date. I need a break.

I DESERVE a break.

I have so much plans for the June school holidays. The sad thing is, Hubby will not be around for the whole school holidays. What a waste!!

I intend to have fun with the kids. He will still be missed, but we can't just stay at home and wait for his return. We can die of boredom at home.

So, I am going to be a little bit adventurous this time. For the first time, I will bring my kids out of our little country, without Hubby. Not sure if I can, but I'll try. Hopefully I can handle them on my own. I know I can. Errr....can I?

IT'S NOT OVER....

Will be back once these two are over....Insya'Allah.

MY BOY AND HER GIRL

MIL called up saying she wanted to "borrow" all my kids for the weekend.

Since Afrina has her weekend madrasah on Saturday morning, so only Afiqah and Affandy are available. So I asked two of them if they wanted to sleep with their nenek. As always, Afiqah was so eager and excited to be with her nenek.

But when I asked Affandy, he simply answered, "Nak Ummi!"

I asked him several times, his answer was still the same.

That's my boy..... *evil grin*

So, this weekend, I shall be one daughter less. Good thing, I can concentrate on Afrina's revision and also at the same time, to complete my project L1.

But Afiqah's pet pot pet pot will still be missed......

I had dinner with her and her kids just now. Quite some time we have not get in touch with each other as she has returned back to the work force. So before my make-up runtuh, I got her son to snap a picture of us.....


Then I noticed that someone was holding someone's hand....


And they happily agreed when I asked to pose together. Look closely at their hands....


Auuuwwwww......The little girl is so mentel like the mother!!

HELP!!

I know this is nothing new, but I just have to write about it.

Dear Hubby is away again, for another 2 weeks.

Haizzzz.....

He will not be around for the period where our girl is having her examination. Here I am, stressful as ever, trying so hard to prepare Afrina for her exams, with another 2 playful kids who will not duduk diam even for a mere 1 second!

HELP ME!!!!

PROJECT "L"

I've been a little bit busy lately.

Afrina will be sitting for her SA1 very soon. In fact, today she has her English Oral Examination. And the one who feel so stress is ME!!

I just don't know where to start for her revision. P1 is definitely not the same as K2. She has to use her thinking cap more.

What I'm worry about is the careless mistake. Don't know how to do is more acceptable than being careless. I just have to remind her to CHECK and CHECK her work before hand over to her teacher.

On the other hand, I have two projects to complete. Just let me name them as "Project L1" and "Project L2".

So if you don't see me around, meaning I'm working very hard to accomplish that projects. By the way, these projects are for a lady out there who also the name starts with "L".

Project "L" for "L".

"Jangan nak sebok suruh aku online ek!"

GOT TRISHAW?

My almost 3 years old Affandy has attended pre-school since the beginning of the year. Within three months of schooling, I have notice some positive changes in him.

As any 3 years old kid, he can easily recognize and count numbers from one to twenty, sometimes with some missing numbers. He can also recognize each and every alphabets.

He can also now pronouce his full name, complete with his abah's name.

His communication skills are also getting better and clearer. So far I can understand what he's trying to tell me, even though some of his words are not being pronounced correctly.

In school, he has learnt some songs. Some are common nursery rhymes which I'm familiar with. But this one particular song which I knew my mom or my late grandmother had sung to me when I was a kid. The problem is, till now I have forgotten the full lyrics.

The song goes like this.....

Ting, ting, ting, ada beca
Beca beroda tiga
Ku naik dengan bapa
Pergi keliling kota

Ta, ta, ta.... *blank*

Affandy kept singing this song. But when it comes to the second verse, he would wait for me to finish the whole song.

As I cannot remember, I tried to create my own lyrics. But this boy is smart, he would say, "Ummi salah!" in an angry tone.


...The Angry Boy...

How am I supposed to know the correct lyrics?? Anyone can help me?

DAY 3

Alhamdulillah....

It's been three days since I sent my kids to school on my own.

It's not that bad actually. I just have to tell myself that this arrangement is going to be my routine.

We have to take 2 buses in order to reach Afiqah & Affandy's school. It seems that my kids enjoyed taking the public buses. They did not complain of the hot wheather. As the buses were not crowded when we aboard, they got to choose where to sit. And the buses are air-conditioned.

After sending the two smaller kids, Afrina and I took another direct bus to her school. The journey takes about half an hour, so this is the time where I lean back and close my eyes, to rest. Afrina will nudge me once we reach her school.

Then I walked a 10 mins distance to home. I have less than an hour to cook, clear some housework, perform my prayer, before I leave home again to fetch Afiqah and Affandy.

I walked a lot during those trips. I took it as a form of exercise. And I perspire a lot too. I carry an umbrella along so I will not get the direct sunlight. I think I need to get a good walking shoes. My feet's aching a little bit due to lots of walking.

ALONE AND LONELY

I shouldn't let all my kids to sleep over at my in-laws' place, when Hubby is not in town. I should at least have Afrina stay with me, instead of sleeping alone, last night.

My parents-in-law insisted that all my three kids to sleep over at their house. They have some religious functions to attend and wished to bring the kids along.

Actually Afrina was reluctant to follow, as she wanted to keep me company. But MIL wanted all of them, just for one night. I could not bear to say no, so I told Afrina, it's only for a night. So, last night, I slept alone.

It was a BIG mistake.

I thought I enjoyed my time being alone at home, but I felt lonely instead.

It was alright at first, as I got to spend my time with some good friends on early part of the day.

But the loneliness hit me when I was alone.

I switched on the TV, but the TV watched me instead.

I bought some food for dinner, and yet it's so hard swallow. And the food was left unfinished.

I lie down on my sofa, and just stared at the ceiling fan.

Once a while, I kept looking at my kids' closed bedroom doors, hoping that they would come out from that rooms.

Yes, I miss the noise, I miss the bickering, the squabbling, the shouting, the whining, the laughing etc.

It's already bad enough that I miss Hubby, and I had to miss my kids too.

The pain and the yearning was so unbearable. And I tried so hard not to cry. I hate to cry alone.

I want my kids back!!! I called my in-law hoping that she would understand and send them back to me, but my kids were all asleep. So I slept alone, aching to hold and kiss them goodnight.

But that was yesteday. They are back now safely in my arms.

And things go back to square one - the noise, the mess, the spills.

This time it's ok, I want it to be that way. I want my kids to be here with me, waiting for their abah to return home (that will be another week).

Tomorrow will be the day that I have to send them to school on my own. I really hope the weather will be kind, so I can send them without much problem. I know it ain't easy at first, but the arrangement will become a routine once I get use to it.

So if you do not see any updates here for sometime, don't blame me, BLAME THEIR SCHOOL BUS OPERATOR!!!! They take away my free time!! Cheh...!

AGAIN

Starts missing him already.....again.

THANK YOU

Great friends, great company, great makciks!!

Thank you for the laughter.

Thank you for the juicy stories.

Thank you for listening.

Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for chocolates from Switzerland.

Thank you for the sandwiches.

Thank you for the cake.

Thank you for the blue water and ice specially for ME.

Thank YOU for being there for me when I asked for a meet-up.....

You all know who you are!!

LALALALALALALA.......

The man of the house IS BACK!!!

But only for a few days. He will fly off again soon....

Let me spend my time with him, while he's HERE!!

Yeee har....!!!!

THANK GOD

I really feel blessed that I have the privilege to become a homemaker.

Not meaning to be unkind to other mothers who choose otherwise or with no other choice. But I just want to let out that I'm really very happy to be a SAHM this very moment.

This is what happened.

Afrina had a bad cough since the last three days. Before she went to school yesterday, she was fine, except for her coughing. But once she reached school, she called me from the public phone, saying she felt so feverish.

I was worried that she would throw up cause this girl of mine could vomit so easily.

So I asked her to ask permission from her form teacher and to call me back.

Half an hour later, her form teacher called me and asked to fetch Afrina back.

Without delaying, I went to her school and picked her up.

True enough, she's burning hot and she was so weak and feeble.

I brought her to the doctor and she was given 2 days MC.

Just imagine, what will happen if I were to work at my previous workplace, in Jurong? And my daughter call me up to fetch her home? What if anything happen before I manage to be there with her?

I am so thankful that I am given the chance to take care of my sick child. Though I may be exhausted and dead beat at times, still I feel contented. They are under my care and I love them very much.

And I know, even when I do make mistake as a parent, they still accept me and love me as I am with their pure, innocent hearts.

They are my love, my life.....

I SURVIVED

So far so good.

I have survived with the kids for a week without Hubby in town.

I'm still annoyed over the Thursday's incident, but I've moved on. I'll just take it as a pinch of salt.

I think I have done my best to keep my kids busy during the school holidays. From movie to library, playground and having meals at fast food restaurant, even swimming. I'm glad that they had a good time with me.

Occasionally, Afiqah and Affandy would ask for their Abah, and my answer was simple - "Abah work". Period. No point telling them the whole story, as they will ask me the same question again and again.

This is how they show when they miss their Abah.

Afrina is forever writing letters to him. I know somehow she would feel relieved when she wrote the letters.

Tomorrow school re-opens and life will be back to routine. Again.

THAT house!

I was supposed to feel welcome when I went to THAT house yesterday.

But I did not.

I felt like an outcast, an outsider and a loner!

When I stepped in, everything was fine at first. The salams, the greetings, the small conversation, the jokes.

But when a lady with two kids came later on, suddenly I become invisible and unnoticed.

Please do not get me wrong. I love this lady and her two kids. They're lovely. And I am not jealous of them.

But the hosts' attitude towards me and my kids, made me so sad. It's so obvious, I swear anyone would have notice.

She drove her own car to THAT house, they said, if only I have my driving licence, then I could drive Hubby's car when he's not in town.

So what if I do not have a driving licence? What's the big deal of having one?

Yeah right, Hubby is working oversea at the moment and our car is being stranded at the car park. Just because she can drive and has her own car, so I should follow suit?? Oh please!! I have other priority in my life, hokay!!

She brought some food to THAT house, they praised and eulogized that food, as though she had put gold on the dining table! The food that I prepared with my bare hands were nothing compared to hers.

And someone living in THAT house kept repeating about how spicy my cooking was and he and his poor friends who happened to share food, visited the toilets soooo many times because of the dish that I cooked!! The dish was Asam Pedas, and it was SUPPOSED to spicy right? That's why it's being called Asam PEDAS!

If my cooking are not up to their standard, then stop asking what I cooked when they visit my house!! Arrrgggghhhh..........!!!

They played with my kids before the other two kids came. But later, what I heard was, "Afrina, don't do that! Afrina, please don't behave like that! Afrina, Afiqah, lower your voice! Affandy, don't be so rough! blah blah blah"

So the other two were saint, and my kids were that bad, huh?

And the lists go on and on and on.....

I felt so relieved when I left THAT house with my kids. I took a cab home. It's not THAT bad taking a cab home, hokay! I can take care of my own kids.

At this point, I really need Hubby to be here with me.....

I want him to know what's going on in my mind. I need him here with me.....

DEAD

They are ALL dead!!

When we woke up this morning, the fishes are DEAD!!

Afiqah blamed Affandy as he loves to knock the fish tank and frightened all the fishes to die.

Affandy said it's because Ummi never gave them biscuits. Huh?

Afrina just can't wait to tell his Abah of the dead fishes.

Now the hot topic in this house is about DEAD FISHES.

Yikes!!!!

MISSING HIM, AGAIN.....

We will be missing him again. He is gone to work oversea, while we are stuck here.

We were supposed to join him for a week during the school holidays. But we gasped at the price of the airtickets. It's just not worth. Might as well we save a litle more and go somewhere further, real holiday for the whole family.

So in the meantime, I'm here with the kids. I just have to keep the kids busy and make their time well spend on these school holidays.

So far so good. We have been out these two days. Meals at McDonalds', movie, Timezone, library etc.

On Monday, Afiqah went to follow the excursion organized by her school to Kids Kampong. And she brought back about 12 small fishes. When we reached home, 2 died. Luckily we kept a small fish tank at home and that's their home now. 3 died this afternoon, and I wonder how long the fishes can survive in the that small tank and eating bread everyday. I'm not sure they died due to insufficient of clean air and water or they just don't eat bread. I don't have anything else to offer the fishes.

Why on earth, Afiqah brought back those fishes!!

THE VENT

Heh heh.....

*Wiping dusty blog*

The PARADISE thingy only last a few days, or should I say, nights. Now I'm back to the REALITY island.

I was not actually that busy to update, I'm just plain L-A-Z-Y.

There's nothing much to update anyway.

But today I need to vent out!

Since the school started in January, I have been enjoying my 3 hours of free time. The free time starts from sending Afrina to take her school bus till fetching Afiqah and Affandy from the downstairs.

My 3 hours of free time were mainly being spent in front of the PC, chatting with my MSN buddies. Sometimes I went out for lunch with some friends and did some shopping on my own. A few times I cleared the house chores.

Sad to say that.....with effect from April, the 3 hours of free time will be taken away from me.

Why?

Thank you to the bus operator for my two youngest kids! They raised the bus fare not once, but TWICE this year!!! I know they will raise again in July, just like previous years. And I have to pay for two kids. On top of that, I also have to pay for the school holidays in June and December.

After doing extreme calculations and a lot of thinking, I decided to send and fetch them MYSELF.

But then there's Afrina. If I were to send the other two to school, Afrina will not be in time for her school bus.

Got to crack my brains to think of the solutions.

In the end, my decision is.....

I'll send all three MYSELF!!

So I have to sacrifice my free time for them. We have to leave home as early as 10.30 a.m to send Afiqah and Affandy to school. Then I'll send Afrina to school. I will have about half an hour for me to go back home and have a quick lunch and perform my prayer. By 1.45 p.m I have to leave home to fetch Afiqah and Affandy. We will reach home almost 3 pm.

Upon reaching home, I have to entertain those two, cook, housework etc....

Later at 6.15 pm, I have to drag them both to fetch their eldest sister. I have to pray hard that they do not take their afternoon nap at that time. I have no strength to carry them all the way to Afrina's school. And I do not dare to leave them on their own, at home, sleeping. So either I have to keep them busy and awake, or wake them up before 6 p.m if they sleep.

I don't see any free time for me to even check my emails.

Haizzzzz......This is my life, as an Ummi!

HE'S BACK!!

She cried upon seeing her Abah.....


The happy faces with their Abah....

Even though it was 2.00 am, the kids were ecstatic and overjoyed when their Abah returned.

Errr...no need to talk about the Ummi, cause she's still in P-A-R-A-D-I-S-E!!

Heh..Heh...

BRING HIM BACK, PLEASE....

Today Afiqah is 4 years old.



The first question she asked when she woke up this morning was....

"Abah dah balik?"

Poor girl....she misses her abah on her birthday.

And Afrina has been writing letters to her Abah, secretly. The contents are heart-wrenching and sad....Some of the contents :

"I miss you so much, Abah.

When are you coming back? I cry and cry and cry for you....

I miss your kiss, Abah. I miss going out with you.

When can we be together again?

Why you must work in U.S?

Please come back, Abah......"

I know she cried when she wrote those, and I cried when I read them...

Both girls show their feelings of missing their Abah in different ways. Afiqah is full of questions while Afrina prefers to write down her feelings.

All of us are looking forward for this Sunday. YES...InsyaAllah, Hubby will be home by Sunday.

So if I did not update for while, meaning..........Heh heh!

THE INCIDENT

It's been four days since Hubby left for States. So far, we have talked twice via long distance call. So good to hear his voice....

He also managed to speak to our kids before they left for school yesterday. I know they miss their Abah so much.

Affandy still looked for his Abah...

He will just cried for his Abah as and when he longed for him and he will not accept any explaination.

This incident happened last Monday.

Affandy was having his lunch and Afiqah was taking her afternoon nap. I asked Affandy if he wanted me to feed him, he said NO. So he ate quietly on his own. I kept myself busy by making kueh for the kids to munch later.

When I checked on Affandy, I was furious when I saw him playing with his rice. He poured the whole plate of rice on the floor and mashed it up. He even poured some rice onto Afiqah who was sleeping at the sofa.

I shouted at him and I hit him hard on his hand...... I knew he felt the pain, cause my hand was painful too. Then I carried him to face the wall.

He was crying loudly and I totally ignored him as I cleared the mess.

The crying soften and he began to weep and sob. This was when I felt so ashamed of myself....

He called his Abah between his sob....

This was the first time he called his Abah when he cried. Normally, he would just called me.

I was speechless and my heart melt seeing him weeping for his Abah....

What happened to me? I felt like I was a bad, ugly tyrant who beats an helpless child, my son.

I could still remember his words... "Abah, Ady nak Abah. Ummi beat Ady, pain... Ady nak Abah..."

I broke down and I hugged his tight. I could not decribe the regret, the remorse, the hurt that I felt at that moment. I just held him tight...

And I left a red mark on his hand.....

If only I was a little bit more patient and enduring....

If only I could control my anger and annoyance....

If only Hubby was here, to soothe and comfort his son...our son.

MISSING HIM....

The moment he stepped out of the house at 4 am on Satuday morning, I start to miss him terribly already. I can still feel his touch and his kiss before he left.

The yearning and aching for him, is so great that it hurts. I thought I was strong, but I was wrong. I am just an ordinary human being who misses her husband so much. And I will continue to feel this way for the next two weeks. Though how much it hurts, I have no choice but to bear with it.

The most unpleasant part was, when Affandy has started to realize that his Abah is not home for a few days already. I know he misses his Abah so much. So much that he cried and kept saying, "Ady nak Abah....Ady nak Abah". How am I suppose to explain to this little boy that his Abah has gone oversea to work? Even I said Abah will be home soon to play with him, he just could not understand. The best thing that I can think of doing, is to hug him.

I hugged him tight, and I cried too. If a young boy like him can feel the pain, how about the rest of us, his Ummi and his sisters?

Hubby, if you are reading this, we miss you tremendously. We pray that may Allah protect you and bring you home safely to us. Please take care of yourself as you are far far away from us, but you are here in our heart. Remember us in your prayer and we love you so much.......

QUEENS OF LONGKANG

Another fun I had while Hubby's busy working.....


My Bowling Gang

Last Tuesday, me & some crazy cousins (Za included) went to have bowling games. I did not believe that I was on my own all that day. YES!! Hubby was at work and all my three kids were with my in-laws. What a bliss...!

The four of us had our fair share of "longkang" moments during the games. But mine was not as bad as dektu lah (NOW YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE...BWHAHHAAAHHA). Even though my Hero cum motivator cum supporter (reads : Hubby) was not there, I still could score, you know. Don't play play with this lady hor....!

Next month, they shall be my Swimming Gang pulak.

ROMOS TIME!!

Yeah, Hubby got to work, so what?? That can't stop me from having my fun!!

And, and, and....I got the chance to romos a baby! Puas tau!!! And the best part was, the mom could not do anything to stop me. *Evil laugh*

Look at her. Her name is Elyza Marsya.....


Last Saturday, Aliyah and me, together with my 3 kids, we went to visit Zany and her newborn baby. I loooooovvvveee the smell of a baby. And NO, I am not going to make a new one for myself. NO WAY!!!

And look!! Even Affandy gave Marsya a kiss.....


Auwwww....so sweet.

So, anybody out there has a baby for me to romos? Heh heh...

WACKY WACKY

Saturday, Sunday, Monday & Tuesday - loooooooong holiday!!

But no...not for me.

Of all days, Hubby has to work on those days. Yes, he has to work on the looooooooong holidays. Grrrrrr....

The the past week, he has been working overtime till VERY late. I'm not talking about 10 or 11 o'clock at night. NO! He came back earliest at 2 am, and that's the earliest he could be home. He even reached home after 3 am in the morning!!!

And this wacky mind of mine had started to run wild, imagining all the nonsense thoughts. I don't have to write here what's on my mind. I think you should know better. The kind of thoughts when Hubby came home VERY late saying he got loads of work and Wifey would ask herself, got work until so late meh...? Eh...Didn't I say I do not want to write about, why am I ranting away? There I told you, I blame it on my wacky mind.

I just need to bang my head on the wall, to keep all those negative thoughts away. Go away, you unconstructive, depressing thoughts. Donch you ever make me be a pessimistic. It just ain't ME!!!

The thing is....I miss talking to Hubby, yes I really do. He left early in the morning while I was busy with the kids, and he came back while I was already in my dreamland. Then the next morning, the kids would get his 100% attention before he left for work. And me.....*sob sob*

I just want to talk, yes, I said TALK! Just talk about what's going on in my life since he had been working overtime. Geeee....as though there's so much things happening in my life lately. But I also need his attention, you know. His 100% attention only for ME, ME and ME!!!

Errmmmm....what should I go to grab his attention? On no, this wacky mind is ON again.....

Enjoy your loooooooooooooong holidays!!

THE JAKUN-IS

What are they looking at?


For the first time since they were born, I brought them to ride a cable-car. Quite expensive for a less than 20-minutes ride, but it was worth it as they really enjoyed the ride.



The view from above was awesome and wonderful....I, myself became a jakun-is.

After the ride, both Afiqah and Affandy learnt a new word.

Afiqah - Clever car
Affandy - Bubble car

Gasaklah nak, asal ada car dia sudah!!

UNGKEP

*Gasp* I almost forgot that I have a blog to update!!

This is the third week of school, so far life has been pretty ok for me. I am still enjoying my 3 hours of free time. Most of the three hours, I spent in front of the PC. I have dozens of things to do, yet I choose to on the PC. Why like that arrr??

Today I cook this.....

Ayam Masak Ungkep

Don't ask me what Ungkep means....

*Slurps* Let me enjoy my lunch!!

CRASHED!!!

There goes one of my decoration for Hari Raya Haji....




The little man of the house, being provoked by the little lady of the house, threw his tantrums and crashed my flower on the floor!

Good thing that he threw it to the floor, not to Afiqah. But still...

This little man need to learn to control his displeasure. Cause if he doesn't, then he shall get it from me. Period.

YAHOOOOOO.....!!

I don't believe it!!

My house is soooooo quiet since 12 pm just now.

And I have been facing the PC since then. *wide grin*

Yesterday was quite chaotic as it was Affandy's first day of school. He was ok for a while, but upon seeing most of his classmates cried, he joined them too!! Aiyoh...and I had to stay in his class throughout the whole session.

As Afiqah is considered a senior at her school, so she's doing fine. Ada kerek sikit...

Afrina is very independent. As I need to attend to Affandy, I just let her onboard her school bus on her own. I did not manage to see her on recess time as the canteen was over-crowded with over-kiasu parents. So I just fetched her after school. It seems she enjoyed her first day and she met some new friends. I think the most enjoyable for her was that she got to buy her own meal with her own money. She even has planned what to eat for the next few days.

So I am really looking forward for tomorrow and the next and the next. At last...!!

I've taken some photos yesterday, go to my fotopages to view. Enjoy... :)

THE DAY

Tomorrow is the day.....



School uniforms - Checked
Shoes & socks - Checked
Bags & books - Checked
Name tags - Checked

My three babies will start school tomorrow.

With the new year starts, new routine starts for me too.

I could sense my weekdays morning this year will be chaotic, hectic and full of shrieking and screeching. Imagine I have to cook and at the same time, need to prepare my three kids to school. All those in the morning.

But not to fret, after ALL of them get onboard their school bus, I shall be FREE!!!

In the meantime, let me adopt to my new routine. C ya!

THE BABY I COULD TOUCH....

At last, I could hold, carry, kiss and romos a baby...


Her name is Aini...

With a group of kecoh moms and kecoh kids, we went to visit Herda yesterday.

As Affandy was busy eating the goodies served, I took the chance to carry Aini. I just could not describe the joy of holding a newborn baby. So tiny and she smelled so nice that I could not resist kissing her.

If only my kids are still a baby......Haiz....

Click for more photos.

DAUGHTER-LESS

Today I am daughter-less, but not son-less.

Afiqah went to Snow City with her best friend. Of course not just two of them, but with her friend's family. I would be crazy if I allow Afiqah to go out alone!

I was touched when her friend's mum called up to 'borrow' Afiqah for a day. As her daughter will be in different session next year, she wants Afiqah and her girl to remain as friends. I can see that she adores Afiqah a lot. Good thing that we stay only a few blocks away, so we can always meet.

Afrina went to Bulan's house for sleepover. She has been pestering me when she can sleepover at her friends' place. Since this week will be the last week of school holidays, I allow her in order not to disappoint her.

So now I am left with a son, who has been placing his toy cars all over the house and been bugging me non-stop. Later at night, Afiqah will come back and she will join her little brother to bug me also.

I just can't wait for school to re-open. Can't wait for my 3 hours precious time ON MY OWN!!!

THE BABY I COULDN'T TOUCH

Yesterday, I brought all my THREE kids, all the way to Tampines, on a bus, to see him......


Isn't he adorable......

His name is Harith Qastari, and he belongs to her.

How I wish I could carry him, kiss him and romos him. But I couldn't, cause knowing Affandy, he would not be very happy. And when he's not happy, he would start his crankiness. And when he starts being cranky, then I would not be happy.

So, in order for all of us to be happy, I was happy just to look at the baby.

Nevermind Harith, if I got the chance to meet you again, I will romos you and I will make sure that Abang Affandy is occupied with something.

Oh yes, I went to visit Hana with Kak SK.


As usual, my first meeting with Hana & Kak SK, I was very quiet. I was very shy, you know......

Nice meeting both of you ladies, next meeting we might open up and talk more perhaps!

OOO LA LA.........

Yahoooooooooo!!! *do the banana dance*

We are child-less for tonite, and hopefully tomorrow night also!!!

Because ALL the kids are have been fetched by their Atok for sleepover at his house.

And I have plans *evil grin* for myself and Hubby. Heh heh....

As my kitchen is closed today, so, we, the ever loving couple, shall have our dinner outside. Only the TWO of us.....

I don't care if it's at Kopitiam or McDonald's or KFC, as long as I got to eat peacefully with Hubby. :-)

We also plan to watch movie!!

And again, I don't care what movie we watch, as long as we get to spend quality time with each other. Only the TWO of us. :-)

After that, later at night, we plan to....... Heh heh heh....

"I feel it in my fingers....
I feel it in my toes..."

Tak mo kacau ek!!!

UMMI, IBU & MAMA

I have another confuse kid at home.

It seems, one is not enough, I have one more. I think Afiqah passed her confusion to her little brother.

Since Affandy heard his friend,Firdaus called his mother Ibu, Affandy has been calling me Ibu also.

It's not that I dislike to be called Ibu, I just can't get use to it. I am known in this house as UMMI since 1999, so suddenly Affandy's been calling me Ibu, I was like...it's just not me at all!!

So I practically IGNORED him.

Heh heh...so now it's back to UMMI, I lioke....!

But then....he called her big sister IBU!!

And this Afrina answered him sooo lovingly, like "Yes Addy, nak Ibu eh? Come here sayang....Ibu here..." Adoi......I also kalah, you know!!

So now if he can't get anything from me, he will look for his IBU.

A few days ago, I heard Affandy called up, "MAMA, MAMA..."

I was wondering, who on earth is this "MAMA"??

To my shock, he was calling AFIQAH!!! And Afiqah gleefully went to entertain him!

He got UMMI, he got IBU, and he got MAMA. How many mother figures he needs in this house???

This is scary, man.....

THE UNFAIR SONG

I almost faint when I heard Afiqah sang this song repeatedly, yesterday....

Satu Satu Afiqah sayang Abang Irfan
Dua Dua, Afiqah sayang Abang Irsyad
Tiga Tiga, Afiqah sayang Dina
Satu Dua Tiga, Afiqah sayang Aunty Salha

Omigod!!!

She is soooo in love with her first son and everyone (except the father) in the family, hence Afiqah created her own lyrics, specially for them. I even recorded her singing in my handphone.

And my Afiqah is only 3 years old!!!

But but but, what about ME??? I AM THE MOTHER!!! What about her other siblings?? How come we are not included in the song??

We always teased Afiqah with Salha's second son, Irsyad. But it seems that she got more attracted to Irfan.

Geeee....I wonder what makes Afiqah sooooo attracted to Irfan. He IS a nice, independent and responsible boy, but we, both parents, jokingly think that he is more suitable for Afrina. Since both of them are the eldest in the family. Irfan is way too mature for Afiqah, 7 years different in age!

But Afiqah 'potong jalan' lah!!

She INSISTED that she wants to marry ABANG IRFAN!!! Nak Abang Irfan jugak!!!

Pol, apa anak kau dah buat dengan anak aku hah....!!! :-P

AT LAST......!!

Hahahahaha.....*Evil laugh*

I have never felt so evil yet so satisfied before. Yet I am so proud of myself!! *Evil grin*

I succeeded in persuading Afiqah to cut her hair....and....I cut her hair MYSELF!!

There's no force whatsoever, but only sweet words and more extra compliments for her.

I told her that, if she cut her hair, she will be the cutest girl on EARTH.

And she will be prettiest, most beautiful than any princesses. Even Princess Annaliese from the Barbie movie, Princess & The Pauper, also cannot beat her.

Oh...I am sooo good at these. At last, this morning, I CUT HER HAIR!!!

Before.....


After.....


I know it's such a waste to cut those beautiful curly hair, but I just couldn't stand the messiness. She did not like to tie or pin her hair up, yet she perspires so easily. So those curly goldilocks hair has to go!!

Next....Affandy's turn....*siap kau bujang*

AFIQAH-LESS & AFRINA-MORE

Today I am Afiqah-less........

PIL came for a short visit yesterday, and Afiqah said she wanted to go home :-/ Huh?

Isn't her home here, with me? I think she's confused.

Knowing how persistent she is, I gave in. There goes all my plan for my kids for today......

But nevermind, MIL promised to send her back today.

And when she's back, I just have to tweak her brain to let her know that HOME is here WITH ME!!! Huh..huh....

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On the other hand.......look at Afrina's pics.....

Before......


After.....



Yes, I sent her for a hair cut.

I want her to look neat and tidy as she'll be in Primary 1 next year. And this is the result. Thank God she loves her new look.....

It seems that her face looks so small with short hair. Nevertheless, she's still a beautiful girl to me.

So, no more messy and tangled hair for Afrina, just short and sweet.

Now....I'm cracking my brain on how to persuade Afiqah to follow her sister's step....

I HAVE SEVEN KIDS!!!

Out of nowhere, I had SEVEN kids at home!!!

Where on earth the other FOUR came from??

Heh heh.... Afrina got four of her friends to sleepover at my house. Four beautiful and well behaved girls.

At first I was like.....could I handle SEVEN kids at once? Having three of my own, already gave me a lifetime migrane. How to take care of another FOUR??

But I was surprised indeed, cause....they did not bother me much. I was almost ignored by them. It seemed I was almost invisible to them. The only time they looked at me was when there were thirsty and asked for drinks. Other than that, they're on their own. Even my OWN girls did not bother me. I felt soooo neglected.....

There are independent and well behaved girls. They had all their fun in the room - talking, playing, laughing, singing, jumping, dancing, hiding, screaming etc. Though there's so much noise there, I felt sooo peaceful outside.

Last night after dinner, Affandy was already in the dreamland. All the girls were in the room. I was with Hubby at the living room, and errrm.....we, ehem....ehem.....we watched TV lah. What you think we should be doing with SIX girls in the room, still having their fun?? Unless they were outside, and we were inside having OUR fun.... Yeee Har!!!

The best part was, we got to watch the tv WITHOUT any disturbance!!

Not even a "Ummi...nak air. Ummi...nak go toilet. Ummi...nak biskut. Ummi...nak itu, nak ini"

Just me and Hubby, on the comfortable couch....WATCHING TV.

The clock showed 11 pm, the noise level in the room still remained unchanged. I had to tell them it's time for bed. Even after the light's off, I can still hear the gigglings inside. After a while, it was all quiet. I took a peep inside.....they all slept like a baby. SIX beautiful girls sleeping peacefully in one room......

If they continue behaving like that, including MY GIRLS, I don't mind having them here often. As long as there's food and drinks on the table, they're on their own. Senang hidup aku.....

THE GATHERING

I had a one swell afternoon today!!!

What can really swell me up?? A gathering, of course!!

A lunch gathering specially organized for Mommies from M4M at Salha's abode.

Lots of foods, lots of mommies, double lots of kids but TRIPLE lots of FUN!!!

What else is new, right? When all the MAKCIK QUARTERS gathered, we ROCKED the house down!!! But Salha's house still remain intact lah...

But Affandy was behaving a little odd today. He really drove me MAD with his crackiness!!!

He thought he could stop me from having my fun. NO WAY, dude!!! Even if he cried all day, I would still have my FUN. For goodness sake, how often could I get to meet all those Makciks.

Feel free to view the photos......

OH OH

THE KIDS ARE BACK!!!! *gasping for air*

To my dearest Mother-In-Law, care to take them back for a few more days, pleaseeeeeeeee.

*faints*

JUST THE TWO OF US

For the first time since we had our three kids, finally Hubby & I had the chance to be alone.

Only the TWO of us.....just for a night.

Yesterday, my PILs came to fetch all my three kids. Afrina and Afiqah were used to sleep over at their nenek's house, but this was the first time for Affandy. My MIL had requested a million times to have Affandy for a night, and I always gave millions excuses. The main excuse was that, Affandy was still breastfeeding. But now Affandy has weaned off, so what excuse do I have? After gave it a thought (in fact, lots of thoughts), I finally released my only son to sleep with his nenek, only for a night.

So what did we do last night? Ehem..ehem.....

We took a feeder bus to Causeway Point, and we watched movie!!! Just the TWO of us....

For the first time in my entire life, I watched a horror movie in a cinema. Since it was a weeknight, the only shows available for us was "The Exorcism of Emily Rose".

At first, I was reluctant to watch that movie. I am not so brave, you know. But what the heck, this was the only chance to spent quality time with Hubby alone.

And of course, throughout the three quater of the whole movie, I watched the screen with my eyes closed. NO, I did not doze off. I was just, you know, just want to watch with closed eyes.

And I could not sleep at night.... So watching horror movie in the cinema, even with Hubby alone, was a BIG mistake. No more horror movie for me!!

But I enjoyed the time alone with Hubby. And he ONLY got my hands to hold, instead of the kids' hand. Hands off kids! Your Abah is ALL MINE till all of you come back! Heh heh...

And what did we do this morning, after Subuh?

We rode his motorbike and off we went to JB!!!

The last time I rode on his bike was about 4 years ago. Since Afiqah was born, I had no chance to come near his motorbike. It felt soooooo good, hugging Hubby from behind in such a cool weather.

We had our breakfast at JB - just the TWO of us. Eating slowly and had our conversations without any interruptions from the kids.

But I couldn't help but to wonder, what were my kids doing at the moment. So get used to have the kids around, or at least with Affandy. Without them, I felt like....so empty and weird.

Aiyoh.....if like that, how to travel for our dunno-how-many-runs-of-honeymoons alone!!!

I'M BACK

It's been soooo long since my last update. I thought of leaving the blogging world for good, but I have such a fickle mind - to stop or not to stop, to stop or not to stop...

So now, here I am. Heh..heh...

Next year, ALL my kids will start school. Afrina will be in Primary One, Afiqah in Nursery and little Affandy will be in Pre-Nursery.

WHAT??? ALL my kids have grown up so fast!!! But all of them are still my BABIES.....

For all I know, they grow so fast and may ask to get married next *faints*

With all my kids in school, will I have more free time? Let me see....

Afiqah and Affandy will take their school bus at 11 am, then Afrina's turn at 12.00 pm.

Afiqah and Affandy will be back at 3 pm, so that means...I have 3 solid hours ON MY OWN!!!

Yahooooo........!! Now I'm getting excited.

But I can foresee that my morning will be very hectic, busy cooking, shouting, screaming etc...

Haiz.....I really love my life. I really do. Do I?

SALAM AIDIL FITRI

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to all my blogger friends.

Till we meet again.......

RAMADHAN

Will be back .....INSYAALLAH.....